A Week into Work..perhaps i'm not used to it. perhaps i expected better. perhaps i wanted more.
the responsibilities involved are fine, cos they are giving me a bit at a time to learn more. the ppl are nice. but.. lunch is a chore. everyday, i dunno who i'll be eating with. lotsa ppl said it's weird, cos they dont even say "join me/ us?" and even so, i'm closer to the temp who is sitting beside me. but she'll only stay for another 2 mths.. sometimes, more often than not, she has lunch appts with her frenz. then i'll hope that sis is free to eat w me. so far it's been fine. hmm.. perhaps i'll hafta da bao next time.. =( haiz.. i hope when Ruix comes back, things will get better.. *cross fingers* and i hope that overtime too, i'll be more at ease in my dept. still feel i'm not being myself.. know what i mean?
i've grown to cherish my weekends more too, which now needs to be jam-packed with activities. i've begun to cherish the home-cooked food i get to eat for dinner even more so now. i've started to cherish the sleep that i thought i could have less of.
i wanna see more of my frenz. i wanna have more time with him. i wanna have the determination and strength to exercise physically after work.
i desire to eat but not grow fat. i desire to have a colleague that i'm able to bicker and laugh with. i desire a life more fulfilling rather than be consumed with work. (eat.climb.sleep is heaven, eat.work.sleep is horrendous!)
i'm still hoping for a better day..
