DecLared a BaD Day...interviewers were 3 aunties. bombarded me with questions (perhaps i wasn't ready to answer their questions) sometimes quite useless ones too. "u're not here to learn, what can u contribute to us?" i'll give her my answers n then she'll say "but have u learnt them in school?" of couse not la! if i don't learn on the job, then where the hell do u expect me to learn? if u wanna find experienced ppl, why ask me down for an interview?! waste my time n yours?! "u've gone a big round but i still don't know what u want." (this could be true cos i just wanna get into the banking industry. sighzzz.. gotta read up more!) ugh.. horrendous experience. right from the start, the VP of HR just kept bombing me.. of course i fired back.. well, if she doesn't like me, nothing i can do rite.. duh! hop on to the next boat then.
i need to be stronger.. after the interview, i called him n broke down. luckily boat quay not many ppl walking pass cos of the hot sun, but anyway, i just needed to feel someone was there for me.. alright then, heard bad stuff abt being in Compliance: boring, monotonous, worse than operations.. was already prepared to go there for the experience, but boy! what an experience eh? oh well, for the following interviews, i'll be better prepared! watch me! RAWRRR!
RuNNiNgafter i returned home, decided to go for a run. the always-postponed, lotsa-excuses, just-being-lazy run. haha, yupz.. decided to shed off those weight due to the increased amount of eating after retiring from competitive climbing. sadly Nitz was in school and couldnt join me. running partners please? anyway, the initial inertia of walking gave way to a much desired sweaty run of perhaps slightly more than 4km. i remember Eli talking abt the cant-stop-shiokness-of running after awhile, n i'd kinda agree with that cos i dont wanna break the momentum. but of course my endurance aint as power as hers, where she can jog, or rather, run for more than 8km at the same pace of tthose above average guys. coolness..
running gives me a sense of escapism, a sense of liberation, a sense of relaxation. in the park, the lush greenery coupled with the sound of waves washing over the shore and the sea breeze cools my senses. as i refresh the day's events, i view things from a different perspective and take into account wise and consoling words from sis and him. every experience is a learning process, i take things in my pride and learn to overcome them. they were pretty tough interviewers, but there is a need for me to learn how to tackle such questions. i think of him and his reasons, though my heart needs no answers, my mind bursts to question.. but things are progressing.
i miss my frenz.. i miss Xin, i miss 7some, i miss Ling who'll only be back next summer, i miss Ru, i miss Sam, i miss my JC mates, i miss Von, i miss my Uni frenz whom i'll never again be able to attend lectures with, i miss the climbers whom i've come to share a special bond with the past 2 years and the possibility tt i may not see them as often as i'd like to in the future..
i miss u guys..i miss u..
