He's Backthis is weird... ok wait ppl, i know tt i'm kinda like supposed to be jumping for joy and welcoming him home with open arms, but... ok, yes, indeed i'm happy but i'm just confused and frustrated at the same time too...
he lied to me tt he was gonna return on 3rd Jan, but in actual fact, he had already touched down on 31st Dec! gave me 2 missed calls on separate occasions but on a private number so i didnt know who it was. finally, on 2nd Jan morn i picked up his call. thought why'd he call so early (10am Sg time but 4am Denmark time), then he said 'early? ' something was amiss so i anxiously asked his whereabouts and tt he reali was in Sg! hehe... pleasant surprise eh? of course, having waited for 5 mths i was indeed happy. talked to him for awhile. but up till now, haven't heard from him alr. he knew i was sick, but he didnt msg at all. didnt call at night either. hmm... i really dunno if i'm expecting too much or tt it's ok...?
i guess my unhappiness arises from expectations. it's either do or die. gets u really ecstatic or really dejected. from my conversation w liying n san in KL, i got to know tt perhaps i'm really dependent on my other half and tt i expect alot fr him, unlike liying. well, i really wanna change tt aspect, be more independent. lower expectations. greater freedom. more personal time. we'll see how things go. shall leave the first move to him though and then later, let nature take its course.
