ConfuSion and FrustraTionwhat is your take on this picture(ignoring the words)? the girl walking away from the guy, or the guy following the girl?
i'm scared of getting hurt. so i wanna turn away before he does... ... it may seem like i was the one who had my doubts first, but unknowingly, he was 'unsure of getting into a r/s now' (in his exact words). it's true, i'm crushed yet there's some slight relief... weird huh? i'm sure he's a nice guy, but perhaps our personalities just don't match each other's? perhaps if we were to get together, there'd be disagreements and we won't be happy? perhaps it's just not meant to be?
ever since sat., no phone calls just 4 msgs sent over 3 days. am i asking too much? doesn't sound like he's serious or sincere rite? seriously, it feels like he's not even back in Sg! i've even tried assuming so cos it's easier this way to lower my expectations of his actions. finally, when i decide to run away from him on tues (after crying yet again), he calls, he msn-msg me, he repeatedly calls but to no avail. i'm too afraid to answer, knowing tt my seemingly hard exterior will just crumble after awhile > my weakness of being too soft-hearted.. sigh.. so, i decided to msg him a day later and told him to make sure of what he wants before finding me.. he hasn't replied. guess tt shows his uncertainty huh? aint a prob though, i've got my own thoughts to sort out... ...
there's this other guy who has been penetrating my mind ever so often just only very recently... everything was unintended yet at the same time, everything was so natural... in fact, too natural to be ignored... both of us are at crossroads.. things are not as easy as it seems.. a very tricky situation... ... trust me.
was talking to xin yst and we both can't come up with anything. it's damn frustrating and i'm sooo confused tt i'm saying 'could u pls kill me?!' poofft... yeah, i need help here, but the only person who can decide is the only obvious candidate. tt would be me. jeez... help me anyway!
i'm scared of getting hurt. so i wanna turn away before he does... ... it may seem like i was the one who had my doubts first, but unknowingly, he was 'unsure of getting into a r/s now' (in his exact words). it's true, i'm crushed yet there's some slight relief... weird huh? i'm sure he's a nice guy, but perhaps our personalities just don't match each other's? perhaps if we were to get together, there'd be disagreements and we won't be happy? perhaps it's just not meant to be?
