ArgHh.. i just cant get down to doing work... *pulls hair* so frustrating! haiz... and so i decided to start blogging! first official entry other than tt currently fave song of mine! woot~!

hmm... coach just blogged abt the diets of sports ppl. women are especially susceptible to going on a diet due to conformity of society's norms and also that they THINK it'll help them perform better in their sport eg running, swimming, gymnastics, dance(ballet) etc. well, personally, i guess i'm moving towards those symptoms! like preoccupation w food and weight, increasing criticism of one's body, repeatedly expressed concerns of being fat etc.. *shucks* yeah, i know, it sounds reali crazy n frenz keep telling me tt i look just fine... BUT... jeez... just a sudden lack of confidence these few days, n keep telling myself tt i've gotta control what i'm gonna put inside my mouth, cos the scales are titlting towards 50, and i aint gonna pass tt mark! but the irony is tt though i'm cutting down alot on the amt of carbs i'm taking in, i still think bread n potato are fine! gee, i guess i wont reali go to the extreme of starving myself since i'm a lover of food...! sheesh... oh, n tt these sports ppl seem to THINK they are healthy just cos they exercise! but it's not true cos due to their eating disorders, they are likely to suffer from loss of menses and osteoporosis! weird stuff... guess the main thing is tt i gotta get my confidence back! used to have it... but seems to be fading away... think it's arising again though... take things at a time ba.

alrightyz... now my final attempt at a reading before i'm off to bed n climbing tmr! hope my fingers stay w me n dun get worse! *cross fingers*