Sing Me A Lullaby

May Heaven Have Eyes..

i hate and dread the 'H' place.. i only pray tt the 'D' and 'S' ppl will practise what they preach.. they are the pros so they should know what to do. efficiency is a gift and tt better be done. i can only hope and pray..

may my loved ones be happy and safe. pls be happy and safe. tt's all i wish for.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:28 PMY

CutE, LoveLy, FuN peeps!

it's truly great tt there are some ppl whom i may not have known long, but really feel comfy with. nice peeps around in my '2nd home' where there's bound to be some laughter everyday (^0^) here's the always-bullying-me crazy girl who asks me to go away when i say sth silly =p but i know i'm there to entertain her *wink wink* stay ok?

then there's the team who looks out for one another. and we have great joy in passing the 'crown' to another person every fortnight. the lucky guy this week!

the gang tt has a decade of friendship yet have only seen others twice in tt period. the chemistry, rocks! the laughter, hysterical! the company, fantastic!

we were a mad huge buncha fellas who were basically just roaming around the streets of arab st and city hall to find a chill out place big enough for 18 pax.. which is practically.. impossible!?! 3 hours after dinner, we finally plonked our asses down in YS' house. all the sweat and exercise.. it was worth it, cos we achieved what we intended to do.. talk, drink and laugh =D as per last yr, we all sat in a circle and talked and laughed.. and talked and laughed.. it was a whole lota fun hanging around peeps we hadn't seen in ages, yet we were all taking as if pri sch was yesterday. ROCKS!

the same guy was being bullied 10 yrs later. we found out secrets 10 yrs later. realised tt apparently the most popular was disliked by quite a few 10 yrs ago.

JL, the guy who got us rejected by a club and a high-class cafe cos he was wearing berms.. but with covered shoes.. he felt kinda guilty but we were all cool w it anw.

the successful and great turnout! may there continue to be more each year to come!

after all the talking and drinking.. food! what an eventful day! *smiles contentedly*

ooh.. and what would life be without climbing and climbers?

Vince and I. we had cheesecake later in the night cos i had major cravings for it! *droooolsss*

watched Man U match with my dearest couzzies, those ardent supporters of the team. lurrve watching sport matches. so peeps, jio me! ooh, played with their dogs too, though one is more tame =]

Nice peeps always make my day. Thanks all you lovely guys! *hugs*

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 12:00 AMY

eMo..

rushed back home just in time to catch a little of Grey's Anat. was still contemplating if i shd do so, cos it just felt pretty gloomy today. like it was a good day to slp in, yet had to wake up to go to work. well, in the show, Georgie made a decision to let his dad go. the latter's organs were failing and keeping him on life support wouldn't bring him back to 'life'. instead of letting him suffer, they did what they felt best..

letting a person go ain't the easiest of things. in fact, it's one of the most daring, or rather, most courageous things to do. the one you love, the one you treasure, you choose to let him/her go. it's heartbreaking, it's ripping you apart, but it's for the better. and may tt special someone find peace and joy in wherever they may go..

Goodnight World. i'll leave you with a bedtime song..

"The Rose"
Leann Rimes

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
Its the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live

And the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes a rose.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 12:43 AMY

Expectations

eyes are tired.. taking in short gasps of air.. mind is disfunctioning.. all that is heard/seen are raised voices, frustrated tones, irritated faces.. tt's too much.. a person once told me that we shouldn't have false expectations of the other party, cos in the end, nothing's well.

Definition of Expectation: when one thinks or believes good things to happen in future. if false expectations are bad, then should we perhaps, harbour no expectations at all? obviously, everyone has expectations in certain aspects, in their careers, in their partner, in their frenz.. what then are false expectations?

personally, false expectations to me are misunderstandings or rather, a lack of understanding. if we were to understand situations, a person, through and through, would they be unable to live up to our expectations? the answer is no. if everyone were to only to think of the worse outcomes, instead of wanting the best, there would be an abundance of pessimism. the world would spiral out of control, downhill. simply, that's horrible.

of course, who doesn't wanna expect the best of things? who doesn't wanna hope for good things/ppl to enter their lives? eradicate expectations? impossible. if you have high expectations, tt is a total thing altogether. in whatever case, one should be realistic. if you have expectations that aren't fulfilled, if you had failed to meet up to the other person's expectations, you can either move on, or stay on and adapt and change. the choice is yours. yours alone.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 10:04 PMY

the WoRLd as it is

people have different moods, different characters. hidden emotions, hidden views. sometimes i dunno who to trust. is it that i'm too sensitive or that the person is too blunt? guess being too friendly ain't too good an idea at times?

u know how ppl indirectly say tt you've gotta put on a 'front' at different situations. perhaps tt's the way of getting around, of appealing to the other party. but underneath it all, what better way than simply being yourself?

how long does it actually take to understand how a person truly is? a stranger, an aquaintance, a friend, a buddy.. Ru said tt it's pretty hard for her to actually 'click' with a total stranger. tt's true, but strangers start off without knowing anything abt the other, while acquaintances/ friends will tend to have certain perceptions of the other party. what's to judge? what's not?

complications arise every now and then. there've been frenz i made simply by talking to them online. i may have just seen them once ever, but the comfort in chatting with them is really a joy. frenz whom i'm really comfy with, make great company. i really appreciate that, and i truly treasure what we share.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 10:18 PMY

SmaSHinG WeeKENd!

friday night had an impromptu gathering with some climbers! woots~ initially Nit and i intended to go climbing but Charl managed to persuade us to go climbing on Sat. i dig impromptu meetings! lurrve ppl to be ONZ =] hehe, oh well, thought there'd prob only be San Nit and i, but more and more turned up! went shopping with San too, soooo RaRe! *snickers*

slept later than i do on working days, and woke up 7 hours later to go climbing @ CA! met up with the team NUS peeps over there. boy, are they strong! Nit's strength was still there though mine had shrunk tremendously.. pfffttt.. oh well.. i couldn't do routes but had fun anyways.. perhaps, it's true that now since i'm not in the team, i don't have the pressure to do well. u could say, i enjoy it more! wow, but not climbing for 4 mths left me with muscle aches on my upper body. shiok! ><

after a short short nap, had to clean up and rush to meet 7somes! yay~ always look fwd to seeing them. too bad Lian was too tired to meet up *frowns* next time ok? HaPPpy happy.. cos, they said i could choose my belated bday prez, of which i thought was the Korean BBQ dinner we had last mth, but anyways, YeaH! i chose Diorblush.. pretty-licious *beams* one side is matt and the other, shimmer. 2 in 1!

ThanKies lots my dears!!! (^-^)

Yan wasn't feeling well so she left early while the 4 of us went to Tze's poolside to chill. the last time being for SF's bday which was way back in Jan! girls' talk again~ yippee!

then close to midnight, SF's bf came to pick her up and we thought we'd be going home. but then, it Tze's car, she suddenly gave a supposedly 'insane' suggestion of going Mt Faber. then JH, me and Tze's couz just spontaneously said 'OK!' and off we went saying 'Shuang!' to Tze's instructions. super HigH/HyPer!!

after being crazy atop the hill, and singing in the car to S.H.E.'s songs, we were all hungry! cheers to a fantabulous night out! woowhee~

dig in to prataaa..

not over YET! we still went up to AHS to check out the new sch building since the girls haven't seen the transformation of the sch. gosh.. it's been 6 yrs since we left there, where our great friendship sparked *reminisce* seemed pretty eerie at night when all's deserted less the hostel. didn't dare to snap pix.. there you go! a jam packed sat night in the span of a few hours with GRRrreat company!

the following day, my boy showed off his new collection. a clam! we've been searching for it for quite some time visiting the fish farms over a span of few mths, and he found this online. stunning! pretty in blue.. then we cycled to the fish farms on a hot hot sunday afternoon.. exercise! what a day to do so with the sun sapping up your energy.. *sweats*

after that, shopping! bought a pair of pants and a dress at 20% discount! earned mummy those shopping points too =] and eating! fans of aglio olio. happy happy!

a pity he had to leave early, and if not for a clumsy guy seated beside me on the bus, who actually wanted to eat sweets but as he took out the packet, the whole lot of it spilled onto the seat and the floor. he didnt bother picking them up and quietly just kept the empty box. later, as he left, the seat was strewn with colorful sweets and the ppl seated across the aisle gave me funny looks.. hmmphf..

other than tt, this has been the best weekend yet spending time with diff peeps and doing a great deal of stuff! happy happy! *smiles widely* =D

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:38 PMY

"Built To Last"
Melee

(Thought this song's lyrics was really sweet.. *melts*)

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel
I've been holding back,and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where you are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 1:10 AMY

Grey's Anat..

Wow.. everytime i finish watching an episode of Grey's, my mood just becomes very sombre.. my mind just suddenly becomes filled with activity, and at the same time, filled with emptiness.. it's all a very confusing complicated thing that i feel, but Grey's just has this way of making me feel so..

U know, i've got it. the string that twirls, it tightens. constricted passage way. breathless gasps. fading shadows. it's me. i need time for myself. yet i don't want it. i want constant activity, take in the vibrance, to feel life. i used to hear San say that "u never know when you're gonna die" (damn, i miss hanging out with the climbers) in the joking yet serious tone of hers. not a min should be spared.

my frenz are a crazy bunch. diversified groups. just love hanging out, chilling with them. sitting down with my bestie in the midst of nowhere and just talk. soak in the breeze and each other's company. it rocks totally. period.

dinner @ Bakerzinn with Dearie Xin

my boy's passion which made me love marine life too

steaming hot jap food @ Ichiban Boshi.. and the process of it all, in his company

me with Rach on a Wed's night till 11+

the time you have is endless, when you deem it to be. there's a time for anything and everything, if you want it to happen, it will. time flies, but who gives a damn, as long as it's time well spent? then you question again. how much is enough? when is it enough? will it ever be enough?

sure, i may work long hours at times, but it's not a chore. i'm good for now, and hopefully in the long term i will still be. RH, dont chuckle to yourself and think i'm silly ok?! and don't come and suan me lo *glares through squinted eyes* =] the road gets bumpy at times, but i wanna do what i can, to the best of my ability.

i wanna live the life i wanna have. i wanna have the freedom to think, to choose what i believe and not get easily influenced. it may be true, but for everything, there's give and take.

don't be too selfish to forget giving, but don't be too greedy to keep taking..

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 6:45 PMY

First time.. again..

today.. left office @ 10pm. 13hours.. heh.. last to leave in my team. bet RH must be like "huh?! u sure anot?!" haha.. my friend/ colleague who's supposed to be my running buddy after work but we have yet to do so together. surprisingly wasn't very hungry cos one of the managers bought Famous Amos muffins for us! so sweet~ (both she and the muffins) perhaps i'm too tired and relieved to eat anything, cos upon reaching home, just didn't have the appetite and drank a mini-bottle of yakult.

my boy and i were supposed to meet for dinner today, but both of us were so caught up with work that it's now close to 11 and we haven't eaten a proper meal. the 'wonders' of the working world where we slog it out to make everything right for everybody. perhaps he made it up for not meeting me by helping me call a merce cab and get one in 5 min? heh.. easily contented girl *sheepish smile*

Thank God tmr it's Friday! a day to the weekend, a much deserved rest.. *plonks down on the bed*

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 10:43 PMY

First time.. More to ComE?

wow.. this may seem nothing to many, but oh well, my first 12-hour day @ work. it wasn't too bad, time seemed to pass real quick.. but at the end of the day, i'm just bummed out.. too tired to eat though i had nice company. oh, and waiting for a cab was a bummer.. just dialling and waiting to confirm a cab takes a full 10 min to settle on the phoneline. the downside of working late but anyway, i still like my job and the ppl =]

"What sunshine is to flowers, smiles are to humanity. These are but trifles, to be sure; but scattered along life's pathway, the good they do is inconceivable."
~~ Joseph Addison

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:50 PMY

SomEthiNg to LoOK ForWaRd to..

met Von and Sam for a great chillout session! dinner @ Aston's, light snacks @ a coffee cafe complete with Lychee Martini, Tiramisu & Oreo Cheesecake, and finally @ Sam's poolside accompanied with Xiao Bai (Von's name for the cat) and yummy rare chips. so let's see, how is it that so many ppl commented i've become thinner?

hehe.. oh man, lurrrved it! ThX girls for the company and the belated bday treat! *grinz* it's been awhile since i last hung out w Von, and also sometime since i've had any gossip or bitching session with the girls (cos 7some are usually quite bummed out after work). anyway, Von dear is craving for Korean food, someone bring her out!

2nd photo is sooo funny cos the cake i was holding, toppled over and i was like laughing, and Sa has a bewildered look on her face, while Von can't be bothered and is posing pretti-ly for the cam. haha..

got my Level 2 Climbing Cert over the weekend. most of the stuff we've learnt before, just had to recap and practise. perhaps, i didn't need this cert cos to most climbers, it seems that i've already quit the climbing scene. weirdly though, while i told others that i don't really plan to climb much, i wanted to take this course so tt this would give me the chance to climb. i could climb any other day, but this would kinda 'force' me to.

anyhow, at the end of the course, i've achieved a small step to conquering my fear. my fear of falling, and that little bit more to being more daring in lead climbing. then i'll enjoy climbing more! whee~ thx frenz, for all the encouragement!

finally, the silly boy specially allocated some time for me where we had dinner @ Marche (jeez.. look at the food i'm putting into my stomach!) then went on to Pacific Coffee Company for Latte. love the place where it's facing the waterfront, enjoying the light breeze. then movie with his frenz watching 'Chuck and Larry'. kinda like a gay movie with lotsa hilarious scenes. Adam Sandler rocks! haha.. then his sweet sweet fren offered to send me back home, all the way in the East, after which they proceeded to Jurong to continue their MJ session where they had just left off on Saturday afternoon! MJ FreaKS~

Sunday night was spent with the family. supposed to swim but wasn't in the mood to, and bro lent me his PSP which is sooo fun! love his company =] we had dinner @ some Jap classy place in Central, which i think wasn't really worth the price we paid for, but was something different as we had Japanese steamboat.

"The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."