Sing Me A Lullaby

MaJor DisGusT

okay, i'm utterly disgusted. not with notes but more with this other weird situation tt just happened. this annonymous number appeared on my hp so i just picked it up. he said my name, and then introduced himself as Jeremy. (i dunno who the hell he is) i didnt wanna sound rude so i asked him where's he from n how i knew him. he said he was in NTU 3rd yr engin, n he knew me from some climbing competition. i asked him how he got my number and he said he was physically attracted to me and tt he came up to me to ask my number and i just gave it to him. i was like ' i totally don't remember tt happening'. n then he said 'are u usually tt blur? but i guess i was lucky'. (uh... yeah right?!)

then he asked if he could ask me a private question. (ewww... u know it gets weird when ppl start their interrogation of sorts *pfft*) i said it depends on what u wanna ask. then he said it depends on whether i'm liberal/ open-minded. n i said i ain't tt liberal (i'm starting to get defensive) and then i asked 'what are u trying to get at? i mean, if u're physically attracted to me, are u looking for a date or tt u wanna get to know me better?" n he said abt the latter tt it's not tt childish or sth like tt. so i was (hugely irritated) 'alright, so u mean tt u're interested in a fling?' and he said 'sth like tt'. WTF?!?! jeez... ' okay, look here. i aint interested in any fling of sorts. i dunno who u are. i cant put a face to your name. so yeah, is there anything else?' and he STILL persisted wanting to ask me and he NEEDED an answer to know how close i'd get to my bf. jeezz... he's some horny shit right? crapz, i should have just hung up and ask him to f*** off but, it aint me. so after telling him upteen times tt i aint liberal and will not under any circumstances give him an answer cos i dont need to and i'm not obliged to and i dunno who the hell u are and tt u've totally ruined ur impression tt i have of u (not tt i have one), i aint interested man! then he started acting shy and backed off a little saying tt mayb we could meet up someday so tt i could be more comfy answering his questions. i'm like ' i dont think so' and he said he'll call me again after his last paper on friday. DONT PLZ!

peeps, UTTERLY MAJORLY DISGUSTED & IRRITATED! ok, the easiest way out was to just hang up on this piece of shit, but i dunno... i just didnt. felt rude i guess. but jeez... the audacity of his annoyingly absurd persistence in invading my private life?! i dont hafta respond to this stranger. UGH! *pukes* do u think it could be a hoax? someone's playing a trick on me? or tt this jeremy ass is really a despo?! *clench fists*

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 1:56 AMY

Rain- I'm Coming (MV)

sizzling... *tshhh* heh, most of us agree he's not shuai, but he's hot mannn... Von dearest, it's ok if u miss his concert, it's sooo super ex la (as we agreed)! gee, u'll have more fun over in HK =] *MuacKz* i'll miss ya!

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 10:45 PMY

IncreDulous

am i like stupid or what? does studying not help? does revising not help? ain't possible rite? if i didn't study, blame me scold me berate me. but damn, i did! it's over so no point harping on it. now, pass me more books and notes and tutorials and papers and pens and highlighters... it ain't over...

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 7:00 PMY

Buck up

gotta get my act together and start studyin, for REAL! jeez... havent got into the swing of things. some days my studying progress is good, some days time just passes by so quick i just didnt know where or what i spent my time on.... *pfft* crapz... but i believe studying outta the house is betta. have been trying diff places this sem. nit's hse, von's hse, med lib, benches in FASS. all just depends on my mood and what subject i'm studying to get things done efficiently. von's hse in awhile, and school on tues! JIAYOU to all peeps having their exams, and i think i need lotsa luck this time round. *ugh*! counting down in 5 days...

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 1:32 AMY

Congrats Couz

in other happier news, couz T J represented S'pore for the 3rd Leg Asian Archery Grand Prix (Myanamar) in early November and brought home prizes for Sg! (he's 2nd fr right, if u wanna know). helping to promote u couz! *teehee* bring home many more awards!

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 12:17 AMY

Not AgaiN

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:18 AMY

Superdog

whoops! yet another new fast food outlet but this time they're selling hotdogs and burgers w fries. oh and did i mention they're selling Ben & Jerry's ice cream too?! sinful..... Xin n I ate the chilli dog, was quite nice plus the fries are similar to those of Mos Burger's.

oh, it's located at B2 in Vivocity. jeez... tt place has been teeming w ppl ever since the first day. guess the hype won't be over anytime soon.. but as long as there are good buys and good food, there's bound to be ppl (like me! teehee). ooh.. and i saw new shops tt have just opened! hehe... *snickers* ooOopsS... didnt go shopping though, needed to go home to rest or mug. ermm... yeah, gotta focus on my exams first. counting down in 7 days...

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:58 PMY

MugGin (or lack of it) at Von's hse

introducing Elly (issit the correct spelling?)! haha.. von's new love; n the yummiest jelly beans from Candy Empire; n the 3 cute pens tt has a cute story behind it (contributed by von's dad).

well, we were trying to mug the whole day. but of course there were bits of breaks in b/w, here and there. and so Elly made an appearance to entertain us, before we fell asleep on our piles and piles of books. von was camera-shy that day so she decided to compare her pretty big eyes w tt of Elly's. would have been comparable if Elly was tilted horizontally. haha... we and our crazy, silly notions and antics just to keep us on the ball...

oh and there's the fake mugger (me, of course). ever since studying for the o-levels, i have nv reali gotten back to the really-studying-damn-hard kinda mood again. sadly... oh well... just 2 more rounds of exams and i'm outta here. gonna miss being a student, but not gonna miss walking into the exam hall w my heart pounding and wondering 'wth am i doing here being so unprepared'. help me get psyched up! counting down:11 days...

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:36 AMY

Quiet Night

everythings seems so peaceful. just the sound of crickets, the slight ruffle of leaves and the humming of the fan... serene... thoughts have dissipated, troubles seem to have disappeared, joy was replaced instead, yet now, there ain't any specific emotion that can be described. it's just quiet.

such a nice feelin'... but it's not going to last long, cos when the sun rises, it's time to start the fire. an irony, yes. the little spark that will glow and then burn, the never-ending supply of oxygen to fuel and start my momentum of studying. i just need to know that my efforts will pay off. *cross fingers* for now, it's time to lie down, to close my tired eyes.. and when i open them, see what the day shall bring...

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 1:12 AMY

ExPectAtions

Mark Twain "A thing long expected takes the form of the unexpected when at last it comes." would this be the case all the time? that when u expect something to happen, it arrives in the least expected way...? sometimes life just gives you a whack in the face to tell u to wake up and stop dreaming, and expecting things to happen. perhaps, we should make things happen ourselves instead of waiting~! nah... it would appear too aggressive on our side... ain't it a dilemma? knowing what u want to happen, yet not daring to think too much into it, for the fear of being dejected and disappointed?

indeed, one can be objective about this thought of expectations. take for instance that though u expect yourself to score a certain grade, yet when u achieve that, it doesnt seem to surpass your expectations, thus leaving you a little disappointed. on the other hand, if u scored a lower grade, u'd probably slap yourself knowing you could do better. in this case, it's the feeling of regret and being discontented that consumes you? different people react differently in different situations but what is the best way to overcome this expectation of yourself?

this could probably be related to confidence VS arrogance. while the former is a healthy way of projecting one's self-image, the latter seems to send out negative connotations of a person's character. these 2 could probably be used as indicators to access the extent of how disappointed one might feel if expectations were not met. the latter of which, objectively, would imply a deeper stab in the heart since they would think other people are bitching behind their backs leaving his/her ego injured.

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from a personal point of view, i am one who believes that one should not set too high an expectation of themselves. the mental and emotional stress alone, is enough to leave me panting for breath. but yes, i cant deny that i do set expectations of myself and expect myself to fulfil them. and sometimes it gets so frustrating that i break down and cry. but what keeps me going is my own persistence and determination to get things done. no matter how hard. it's tiring, yes, but throwing in the towel and walking away ain't gonna solve anything. so just brave the winds and go against the storm!

waiting is torturous, but rather than wait, why not just utilitze everyday as if it were the last. and then cherishing the people, situations and things around you, would indeed divert your attention away from the expectations of everyday life, minimizing the disappointment that may arise if expectations weren't in equilibrium.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 10:45 PMY

RunAway

how nice it'd be if one could just run away to a faraway place, even if it's just for awhile, to find the peace he/she needs. quiet ; serene ; tranquil ; calm ; soothing ; relaxed ; forgotten ; enveloped by the silence. such a place could only exist when you're asleep and dreaming.

with such hectic schedules in school, the never-ending streams of projects, assignments, tutorials and now, the coming exams, it can only be a wonder when our thoughts can be at ease. even after putting in a whole lot of effort in completing the work, the results aren't what u expect them to be. disappointment, regret and sadness seeps in and sometimes, consumes one's mind so much so that, u feel like running away. running away from this rat-race environment, running away from the stress, running away from the expectations... running away from it all...

'you reap what you sow' aint tt always what parents say? sadly, sometimes or perhaps even most of the times, it won't be the case. by putting in so much heart and soul, and effort into something/someone, it goes unappreciated (or at least u think so). does one keep pushing and trying till results are seen, or lets everything go to waste? guess it depends on whether you've got that dogged persistence and determination to push full force out of your comfort zone and venture into the dangerous darkness. it's not easy, definitely. but sometimes, i just wish i could be enveloped by the darkness to sort out my feelings and thoughts, and then burst through, into the light which welcomes me.

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 1:01 AMY

MugGin/GooDie LucK Bro!

now's the season of mugging, mugging and more mugging... yikes! jeez... i think it's super stressful to be a student. though i know working life is

much harder and i wanna remain a student, but i cant take studying anymore! *pulls hair* since i have only slightly more than a semester before i complete my student life, i guess i can safely say that studying for my A-levels was one of the toughest times in my life. the expectations of scoring (sufficiently) well to get into Uni, that your own expectations as well as ur parents, friends and family... *whew* i'm glad tt period's over, especially when it was time to receive the 'you-made-it' certification, or, the death sentence...

jeez, still remember vividly during those dying moments, that all i wished for was that i could pass my GP. i'm sure most of u know by now tt i totally skipped and left blank a whole page of questions equivalent to 10marks of compre. tt was cos i misread the summary question n had to redo it, leaving only less than half an hour to complete 10marks of questions AND application question. disastrous! but miraculously, for the LoVe of God, i managed to pass quite comfortably! think it's largely thanks to my compo and luck for studying the aspect of 'technology' the night before!

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dearest bro, i'm sure you'll do well if u put your heart and mind into it. it's tough, i know, but as Da jie alwiz says, "tough times don't last, tough people do". just gotta persevere! dont be sooo distracted by other stuff kz? aint no time for that. believe in yourself my dear. we'll always be here to support u! *wild cheers* GamBatte! JiaYou! =]

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 6:04 PMY

SweEteniFied

jeez... been eating lotsa sweet stuff lately. haha... it has been ice cream galore for the past 3 wks! once every wk tho, not like alternate days! whee~! Cherlyn started it off by giving me chocs to encourage n cheer me on *so sweet*

then next up was haagen daaz AND Ben & Jerry's for the next 2 wks!

woo~ never realised that eating ice cream could make me feel so blissful until Quan mentioned tt i looked soOo happy. n then... *ding!* suddenly became conscious tt i was smiling whilst scooping up the melted ice cream on the plate in Haagen Daaz. weird huh? cos i nv thot i had a sweet tooth. too much chocolate, esp hot fudge, makes me cringe *shivers* but then again, the whole process of eating ice cream is fun! let's see, removing the whipped cream, scooping up one flavour n mixing it with another plus a tinge of choc or peanuts... *slurps*

ooh... n then today, met up w Ray *gasps* haha, first time in 4 yrs. old friend... he treated me to Cafe Cartel (cos he was late! guys ah... *shakes head*) n i had ice cream again! hahaz... the ice cream was super sweet! he had some chocolate w hot fudge n i had some caramel w vanilla. too much whipped cream! ahhh... the fun part came at the end where we both dared each other to have a spoonful of the sweetest stuff which was at the bottom of the glass. i had a half choc cookie w fudge n cream, n he had vanilla w cream w caramel *chokes* we immediately gulped down lotsa water after the 'ordeal'. hehz =] wanted to take more photos but the battery died on us. so hmm... see if we are fated to meet again...?

feel sooOoo much better after being sweetenified (coined this word myself). yst was just a bad day... too much thinking abt my climbing injury... and also the lack of sleep considering i spent the whole of sunday plus monday morning till 8am to do my 2000 word essay. yeah, pretty last minute stuff... guess tt explains why i was cranky n down. feel so much better now though! JJ wants me to smile more! *grinz* ice cream makes my day! WheEe~!