Sing Me A Lullaby

LoVeS

it's amazing how 'time heals all wounds'. well, perhaps not all since some scars nv disappear. i just watched Grey's Anatomy n it ROCKS man! how Izzy wanted her bf to have a new heart n thus needed to make his condition worse before he would be granted one. the power of love yet the foolishness of devotion.

my life has been becoming more interesting of late. perhaps bcos it specifically just revolves around these 3 ppl who are kinda related bcos tt's how i knew them. R, Jus and Gg. Jus was once my so-called 'big bro' cos he would look out for me and made sure i was alright. but he stuck his head into 1 r/s too many and i felt like i was puppet in his game. sure, i knew he loved me as his sister, but he shouldnt have done what he did. w or w/o his manipulation, the relationships b/w R & me, Gg & me didnt work out, which ultimately, i think was for the best (since i've now met JJ =p aint sure if things will work out but stuff are going pretty smooth).

both r/s ended on a bad note, but amazingly, i'm now on great talking terms with the 2 of them. perhaps i dont hold a grudge or that i just dont wanna hate anybody, but it's really amazing to be able to talk to them so comfortably and happily. we'll talk abt the past, their girlfriends, how they are doing, and all this while there aint no hard feelings or bitterness in my tone. they are happily attached w their respective gfs for a couple of yrs and sometimes i even give them advice!

someone could just knock me in the head and ask me why i'm such a fool for even talking to them, much less care abt their current r/s, but it's just something tt i'm happy doing. i'm happy to help out and happy to know tt they are happy where they are. of course, i'm not exchanging my sorrow for their happiness in anyway, but i've really put the past behind me and hope the best for them. yeah, alright, it sounds like i'm a saint or something, considering the fact that some of their actions were so bastardy-like. like, seriously. yet naturally i forgave them both. well, in both r/s i suffered, i cried, i was shattered. yet simultaneously, i grew stronger emotionally, learnt to love, learnt to let go and, pick up the pieces and move on. to me, it's amazing, truly amazing from how far i've walked in the path of love, in the path of hatred, but also in the path of forgiveness and joy.

amazing.