Sing Me A Lullaby

GoSh~ it's so frustrating! will someone pls help me heal my fingers? it'll be fine if i stop climbing for a week, n then once i do... it gets horribly deformed and swollen! like WTH? seriously... it disturbs me, spoils my mood, n saps my energy thinking abt how much i wanna climb! ugh~ *sobz* esp when i go to the gym n see ppl trying out routes, i reali wanna go on the wall n see if i can do it! Nit said it's heartbreaking to see me wanting to try yet knowing i'm holding back n controlling myself. haiz... n Tze has been tellin me to take care n scolding me for wanting to climb so much...

i'll TRY to control!

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 10:29 PMY

ArgHh.. i just cant get down to doing work... *pulls hair* so frustrating! haiz... and so i decided to start blogging! first official entry other than tt currently fave song of mine! woot~!

hmm... coach just blogged abt the diets of sports ppl. women are especially susceptible to going on a diet due to conformity of society's norms and also that they THINK it'll help them perform better in their sport eg running, swimming, gymnastics, dance(ballet) etc. well, personally, i guess i'm moving towards those symptoms! like preoccupation w food and weight, increasing criticism of one's body, repeatedly expressed concerns of being fat etc.. *shucks* yeah, i know, it sounds reali crazy n frenz keep telling me tt i look just fine... BUT... jeez... just a sudden lack of confidence these few days, n keep telling myself tt i've gotta control what i'm gonna put inside my mouth, cos the scales are titlting towards 50, and i aint gonna pass tt mark! but the irony is tt though i'm cutting down alot on the amt of carbs i'm taking in, i still think bread n potato are fine! gee, i guess i wont reali go to the extreme of starving myself since i'm a lover of food...! sheesh... oh, n tt these sports ppl seem to THINK they are healthy just cos they exercise! but it's not true cos due to their eating disorders, they are likely to suffer from loss of menses and osteoporosis! weird stuff... guess the main thing is tt i gotta get my confidence back! used to have it... but seems to be fading away... think it's arising again though... take things at a time ba.

alrightyz... now my final attempt at a reading before i'm off to bed n climbing tmr! hope my fingers stay w me n dun get worse! *cross fingers*

Y Lulled to Sleep @ 11:30 PMY

Chasing Cars

[ Snow Patrol ]

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We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

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We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

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If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
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If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
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Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
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If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
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All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
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If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

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